It had been an even blend of work n play. But it has been more of the latter so I've gotta b good.

Joy will b leaving us in the next couple of days. I'm really sad but keeping as much of a stoic face as I can. It's not ez cuz we'd grown close as colleagues n she's probably the only one who knows how to handle when I flip at work.

I guez everyone's rite when they say u can't get too emotionally attached to foreign workers. They will leave u one fine day. Tt's how it has been for the past year. I felt betrayal when the gals left. At least they're in town. But tis feeling nw is different. It's lousy but we haf to move on. I juz hope tis feeling doesn't become something extremely negative. It has been such tt my distrust in ppl haf grown so much tt I dun feel positive anymore. Not tt I show it to others. Wat can they do anywayz? I juz wish my lil' darling all the best.

It has been a sober bdae period for me n I thank myself I had the willpower not to get drunk n b stupid. I'm getting old. I can feel it. Thou I always tell ppl, "It's all in the mindset." Haha... The appreciations n priorities in life r so different from, let's say, 5yrs ago. Not a very long time, but I guez tt's how it's like when u feel settled down.

I do wish, however, tt my career would b smoother. I've reached such an age n mentality tt tis is simply not enuf! I've been telling myself to work on my flaws but... Urgh!.. it's juz so difficult to get away from the same old dumb mistakes.

I've to start trying to get fit again. I need to learn how to do so w/o forgoing my cigs n beer. Call me ingenius if I can find a formula. Haha...