Had been at the airport wif Ym n Zy from late noon till juz. Trying to help Ym wif her Math. N it's gd Zy came too, knowing tt she wouldn't bother working on her revision if she didn't come.

Seeing how flustered they r while working on their sums reminds me of my high sch days. My mates n I would b unwittingly racing one another to complete our qns accurately in the shortest time. It did me well wif gd stead. But I feel bad when I gif Ym sums n she gets so stressed out. Told her tt I'd c her once a week not to go out n haf fun but to help her wif her Math. I mean, I know tt's the only thing I can help her wif in terms of sch. O n Eng n F&N too.

I'm glad to c Zy working hard on her sums too. She really needs someone to push her to study. She's so damn smart, yet super lazy. Hopefully I can b of help to them in tis final stretch towards their 'O's.

Been hearing different stories abt things between Fuz n Peg, n it makes me wonder y ppl can't make a r/s less complicated. I mean ppl already know wat's going on between them yet they haf to make it so difficult to comprehend. Is it tt fun?

At least I know things r going cool on my side. Currently working hard to learn how to get over tis difficult period at Wdc. The kitchen will b going thru a transition for the 3rd time. Y can't they b more open? It was tough for me too. But once I removed tt barrier of stubborn-ness I came thru well. My only problem is tt I can't move on faster than I hoped cuz of all these problems. My career progress is going thru a long pause cuz of tis n I wonder how long more tis will take again. Juz praying for the best.

Despite it all, I've been loving tis couple of mths. Work, despite its hiccups, has been alright. My frenz luv me more 'cept... Juz tt 1 troublemaker. Redundant. N someone has been treating me betta than I deserve.

Thank you for loving me

Keane
25Feb08

I wonder how ppl define "circle of trust"

Understanding? Faith? Blindness?

It is somehow baffling when a person u haf shared weal n woes wif suddenly lose consciousness bcuz he didn't know wat to do

I mean... Is it so difficult? To me, it's a snap of the fingers if u know how to handle my emotions. I'm not a difficult person to handle. I listen. I may lose my cool for a short while but I'm not unreasonable. I reckon I'm matured enuf to handle the weight of situations.

But wait... I dun consider tis a huge thing to go bonkers abt. U r juz going out wif her. N we've broken up for sometime alr. It doesn't matter who she's wif as long she's well taken care of. Tt's all I ask for.

Friendships, as well as those ships I can trust to put my heart n souls into, r my utmost importance. I dun think it's so hard to put any ranking into family, work, frenz, n gals. But is there a need?

I guez if ppl understand me enuf, I dun even need to post tis. Unfortunately not. Perhaps a handful of them, to gif them some credit.

I've been happy. Thank Y.O.U.

I'm a piece of art
I dun haf to work on myself,
N I'm not complicated
Perhaps u shld

Keane
16Jan'08

She left me 10 yrs ago
U haf done the same nw
Thou in different circumstances, both r for the reason
2 ladies, who I gave my all to, left me for who I m

The ones in between made my heart ache less
I think they will all think I'm an ass
But I dun care

Immensed in work n talk too much crap with company
Drinking, staying in my own world or sleeping when alone

I dunno how else to keep myself sane

Keane
7Oct'07

I still dun exactly remember y I went mad on Sunday nite

Stress?
Silent anger?
Self-blame?

Beats me!

But all I know I'm feeling the effects

The boys r probably right
But I'm either juz plain stubborn or simply blind

I tell almost everyone to smile n laugh their troubles away
It seems so simple
But I reckon tt's where my problem arises
How to release all these crap

Anger management?
BAH!!

Keane
2Oct'07

Enjoyed my Batam trip throughly wif her

We didn't do much. Made her happy wheneva I could.

I juz had to spoil it at end

Wif a moment of verbal folly

She hurt me wif she said. I had to defend myself.

I wish I stopped myself from saying wat I did

But I reckon I can't take them back

Only the happy moments r keeping me sane

Dumping the insignificant bad but keeping the good memories wif me

They say a woman doesn't make a man
In my case, she completes me
N I'm not even a man

Keane
30Aug'07

Made an effort to travel to Pasir Ris after work. Despite the fact I had to pack for tmr's trip n complete a part of my menu-engineering b4 leaving.

Tried to call the 2 gals throughout my way down to the east but no response. Thot their hp weren't wif them so I was cool.

But I'm keeping my anger in check nw cuz of how inconsiderate they r.

I understand she needs a rest n doesn't want me to come down to disturb her. But for goodness sake, the 2 gals had no bloody courtesy to inform me tt the ill one was already resting n other one was still entertaining her fren. If they had made the initiative to inform me b4hand, I dun think I'll feel so pissed off.

I really wish Cathy will change her mind cuz I know she's making an effort to get used to work n all. N she's proving herself already tt she's trying hard. She really has the potential. I really hope tt it's juz cuz of her fever tt it's driving her crazy n not work or anyone of us at all.

As a colleague n supervisor I think it's a waste she's thinking of changing her mind abt continuing here.

But as a fren to the 2 gals, I'm extremely disappointed.

I think I've enuf of carrying on abt them. I'm still VERY irritated.

Gonna cool down wif a Baron's wif Redbull

Kindness is loving more than they deserve

Keane
27Aug'07

U know I can't smile without u
I can't smile without u
I can't laugh n I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything 

U c I feel sad when u're sad
I feel glad when u're glad
If u only knew wat I'm goin' thru
I juz can't smile without u

U came along juz like a song 
N brightened my day
Who'da believed tt u were part of a dream?
Nw it all seems light years away 

N nw u know I can't smile without u
I can't smile without u
I can't laugh n I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything 

U c, I feel sad when u're sad
I feel glad when u're glad
If u only knew wat I'm goin' thru
I juz can't smile without u

Nw some ppl say happiness takes so very long to find
Well I'm finding it hard leavin' your love behind me 

N u c I can't smile without u
I can't smile without u
I can't laugh n I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything 

U c I feel glad when u're glad
I feel sad when u're sad
If u only knew wat I'm goin' thru
I juz can't smile without u...